Promise me!

A friend died today. Her name was Yolanda and she lived in my neighborhood. She was probably in her 40's and has 2 teenage kids. I knew her from our HOA meetings and we immediately befriended each other, probably bc of the "brown connection". Anyways, we weren't that close, but we kept each other in the loop of things that happened in our neighborhood (always drama in the hood). She was a very nice, generous and happy person who appeared to believe in God and in being a good person.
Last December she had a brain aneurysm and was in a coma for a while, but miraculously survived and recovered. I ran into her on the street a few months back and she started to tell me about her story and asked me to come over so she could tell me more. I never even thought about going over until a few weeks back. I emailed her to make arrangements to visit on a Sunday afternoon and I forgot of course and the thought has passed my mind once or twice since, until this morning and now it's too late.
I'm of course kicking myself and wondering many things. Why didn't I just walk around the corner to see her that day? Why didn't I knock on her door yesterday when I passed by her house with the kids? Did I miss the chance to serve a person in need? Did I miss the chance to share my testimony with a friend? Did she need my help, is that why she asked me to come by? Is there more that I was supposed to do? Why did I forget to visit her that Sunday afternoon? What was more important? Am I really that busy? The questions go on and on, but most importantly I often wonder why I ignore promptings from the spirit that are so clear, obvious and easy to act upon.
Tonight I write this not get sympathy or responses like "it's ok." It's really not ok. I know that I'll be held accountable to a certain extent for a life that I missed the chance to touch in whatever way God intended. I only pray that as I strive to keep the Lord's commandments and to find ways to have more compassion and love for others that I will not have to ask that list of questions again. And so please don't feel sorry for me or contemplate how to comfort me, just promise me something. Promise me that you'll be the kind of person that our Savior was. I know he never passed a human being in his life that didn't feel of His influence big or small. Let us strive to be the disciples we've covenanted to be. I love you all sisters!

My first time ever joining the blogging world!

Hello Sisters!  Happy Friday!  

After speaking with Alisha yesterday I realized that although life is crazy with work, church, and just surviving I need to remember what is important...my family.  I have never blogged before but as I can not be close to most of you, my sisters, I still need to feel of your beautiful spirits and this is a way to do that.  What a blessing it is to know that each of you are in my life and because of you I can be a better person. I can't guarantee that I will post something everyday, but I do hope to post more :)

I appreciate your encouragement to be better than I was yesterday and to know that although I may fall short I am still loved.  

Till my next post..

Much love,

Regina